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I stopped bleeding. I’m still testing positive on hpt’s. Last month when I miscarried, by the time I stopped bleeding, I was testing negative on hpt’s. I’m going to buy another 2 packs when I get off work today. If I’m still testing positive when I should be 8 weeks, I’ll go to the doctor. I really hope I’m still pregnant.

How does a person even begin to deal with a thing like this? I have no hope left in me at this moment. I really wanted to be your mommy. I’m sorry that I’ll never get that chance.

I started bleeding at work yesterday. It was right before the end of my shift. The girl who comes in after me knew something was wrong, she could tell by the look on my face. Even though I knew this would happen, I still had high hopes that it wouldn’t.

Me at 5 weeks pregnant.
Praying for a healthy baby.
I’m not telling anyone the news yet, not until I know nothing will go wrong.
So I’ll document my pregnancy here on tumblr. It’ll be my own little secret between Me, myself, and I.

(Source: ilickoldpeople, via suckkmykiss)

So yesterday, before going to work , I bought a pack of home pregnancy tests. I took this test in the bathroom at work before starting my shift. The next few weeks will be a waiting game full of anxiety. Prior to finding out I was pregnant, I had been exercising heavily and popping an unhealthy dose of diet pills. I lost a baby at 4 weeks last month for that reason. I’m scared to death that I will loose this one also. I have stopped all the unhealthy behavior, but I’m scared to death that damage has already been done. I already have 2 beautiful sons, but I would really love to have a daughter.

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Charlyne: How did you guys know you were in love, if you’ve never been in love before?
Mary Beth: Wait for the lightning bolt. I’ve been saying that all of our lives. Sometimes it’s slow and it grows and all of a sudden you realize it’s there. Many times it happens in the beginning, like it did with us.

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